If God is Real / kid in Flight Album
Lyrics
I woke up about halfway through the story
People told me God was real and out to make me sorry
But slowly as I grew, I let go of old ideas
And found that God was good and He saved me from my fears
You see people judge for themselves that life is not worth living
They say if there’s a God then why allow the sinning
Fears slowly grew in my heart like a southern vine
I thought I was OK, but I was not doing fine
And so I got off course I believed the broken lies
And hurt my soul by judging all in my own pride
But the loving Father waited with no anger in his eyes
And when I turned back to Him He invited me inside
Ooooooo
God is not a tyrant He’s a friend no need to hide
He only wants to show you love and make the pain subside
Meditation
So here it is. The first Kid in Flight album. I don’t know where these tunes came from exactly but I’m glad they are now out into the world. I’ve had a lot of concepts about God through my life. Where I’m at today is that He is the Big Mystery. I don’t fully understand how He works or operates. I’ve heard it said that this is probably how He intends it.
I used to be very religious. I think I am much less today. The world is just too crazy to try and fully make sense out of all the hard things. And it’s as if every generic answer does not quite satisfy. “But kid I thought you were a Christian making Christian music.”
Well let me put it this way. I’ve been on the outside for much of my life. I’ve always felt unworthy and I’ve experienced some things that have made me more isolated and alone. I don’t fit the picture of what the world sees as a blessed individual. There’s been no worldview or model I’ve found that speaks to the dispossessed as also worthy of love which is so messed up. In this Instagram-highlight-reel-perfect-post-Roman world where do the imperfect go? If hard things happen to you is it because the higher powers hate you? How tragic. So the dispossessed not only have to deal with their lot in life but also must believe it’s because God hates them.
The only place I’ve found solace from this hateful worldview is with Jesus. I’ve read the gospels and been amazed that Christ says that the least are actually the greatest. That there is love for the slaves and the hated. That God loves the dispossessed. And as I’ve engaged with Christ through prayer I’ve found this to be true. That He loves me and sees me as worthy no matter what tragedies hit me. And the tragedies are not a punishment. They are just part of life. He loves me and walks with me through the pain. And no other entity I’ve explored does this. And for that reason alone I owe Him my life. When the whole world saw me as cursed and something to scorn, Christ showed me love.
-kid in flight